Our Daily Alarm System

I guess one positive thing about this particular alarm ssyems is that it always works. I always wake up. But it feel horrible to wake up almost everyday to the sounds of my parents yelling and arguing. It never changed even after we became Christians. There is just less plates to throw away. I know my dad isn't the smartest, most selflses man out there, in fact he is so emotionally disconnected with us it hurts. But it hurts even more when my out of resentment curses my father, not with curse words but with things such as oh you were the Chairman's son and this is how you act. Mind you my mother has every right to be mad, and she defientely has more patience that I ever will have in her situation, but I would still like to treat people well no matter what because I know that pleases my Heavenly Father. It is way easier sadi than done and that is why I need God's help to love those who are according to the world are difficult to love.

Saying this however, I deeply respect my mother and I lover her in a crazy way and I know that I know that she is the best mother in the world. She opened up to us time and time again that she regrets her marriage and since she doesn't have too many friends due to her heavy responsiblities as a single parent really, she did complain way too much to us. Now, more than a career, more than even grades in school, there is such a desire in our family with my sister and I to find the best husband. According to my mother we need a family man, a responsible man and a godly man. She is a wise woman and it is because she lead this family well all the while trying to establish herself as a librian and the daily struggle she had to put up with us and my father that she is just super exhausted now. I just pray that God will bless her mightily and increase her life and give her joy because she needs to start living life again. I want to see her not give up and just get on like so many her age do, but to be alive, vibrant and energetic. But I have not walked in her shoes, or the path that she took. In the meanwhile I will pray that Holy Spirit will be the glue that holds us together and will stay on the promise that as for me and my house we will serve the Lord!