Fractured Ankle

I cover each word with the blood of Jesus Christ and I come to God in Jesus Name.

Today was a great day all because of God's goodness towards me. I can't thank Him enough. I woke up with pain in my ankle. It was still swollen. I was crawling on the floor and someitmes I still had to but my dad got me a set of crutches. I went to the hospital with my sister in whom I saw a rare side to her, one that encompassed caring and demonstrating affection and servanthood. But yes everyone was so nice to me and liked me for no apparent reason. They were quite rude to others. There were men and women alike who went out of their way to help us. After my x-ray the doctor said that nothing was broken (thank God) but that I had a fracture. I actually got a week off to rest. Further I had a consistent and light hearted text conversation with a male I will call the river. I have spoke of him before but today's conversation was different. Although the male I like in my church named meop had not answered his texts at all. I was saddened. To contextualize he like me and asked me out on a date but I for a reason I cannot justify at the moment I said no. So rightly he is guarding his heart and seems to have moved on. My sister prayed for me and I for her yesterday regarding boy matters.

Further I am currently watching the G20 protests. I had to make a lot of cancellations with future plans. I feel as if I have to just stay home and do my readings and the fun of being carried and cared for and getting attention is wearing thin and reality of the injury called an acute inversion is setting in. Sometimes I find that when I am home I develop a great deal of depression symptoms and or I get so lazy and waste the time the Lord gives me. I also learned from my sister that I apparently don't have "game"... I see what she means because I loose my cool when I even see a stranger whom I like. One example out of many even during this day was when I saw a male nurse or doctor watching the game as I was rolled on the weirdest wheelchair I have ever seen. This was paid for by a stranger by the way and it looked like a shopping cart made into a wheel-chair. Some would wonder why one has to pay for it but seriously it was metal and was rusting too! In any case the strong, tall, fit, and smart official took his eyes off the screen and looked at me and smiled and I was so embarrassed that I looked about and even acted in a childlike manner as I looked up at the screen as my sister rolled the cart by. I lost my cool. Even with texting the river the momentum ended with a dreaded singe text "lol" by him sent to me with no follow up text. I really need help in the guys department. Sometimes I feel like my sister may be giving me false hope by saying that the reason meop is avoiding or keeping his distance because he still has feelings for me and doesn't want to like me again since I completely broke his heart. There seems to be no hope in this situation to me. I am totally leaning on God. I have to. All I know is He has someone special just for me and vice versa. Also why do people keep asking me if I'm in a relationship? I haven't been since that dark time in my life. Egypt which God delivered me from. That's a whole another post, rather a book in itself. God be with me. You are my Great Comforter.

In Jesus Name I pray and ask.
Your daughter,
Sarah