Dear Heavenly Father, I come to Thee in Jesus Name. Where do I begin. I thank You and I praise You. Even the few people who are following my blog is such a blessing! I honestly never even dreamed of anyone following anything I write but I know everything that is prompted and inspired by Your Spirit is powerful! Today You have surprised me. There was a BBQ held at my church today and I came ready to play sports mainly basketball. As always I was the only girl and I was ready to show off the boys but as soon as I got the ball I felt searing pain in my right ankle as I twisted it and fell to the ground. I lay there not knowing what happened but in paralyzing pain. Everyone stopped playing and asked if I was okay. The pastor and the leaders helped me up and gave me a shoulder each to lean on as I hopped to the tables and chairs that were set up. Placing freezies as a substitute for ice packs. In any case now I realize that my weak faith yesterday was slowly becoming stronger and stronger as the night went on. And leaning on my brothers and sisters in Christ was an incredibly accurate allegory of what I was experiencing in my faith.. but more precisely how I was leaning on You for strength. When I look back this was such a blessing in disguise. I was forced to sit down and stay in one place listening to people as all who passed cared and inquired about me even people that did not know me. Then I was surrounded by some of my lovely sisters in Christ as they cared for me and were my support. They are both in a relationship or married and they even inquired about how things are with me and honestly even woman that was married or in a relationship came by and asked me if I was in a relationship. I told them about the atheist dude who pursued me. Then we all supported one another and bonded as we listened to a friend open up about a very dark time in her life and it literally made my friend and I sick. But we were there to support one another and we knew God was working. They spoke such life into me. Saying things like any guy would be so blessed to get you because you're so sweet and how it's important to be friends first before entering into a relationship and how to even consider what the right time is even with the right person. There is so much I could say but I mean everyone was helping me and caring for me and loving me. Even my sister got me food and followed me home when God gave me the grace to drive home. One pastor even drove my car to the church doors and another leader actually carried me to my car and another little brother also a leader in the church group helped me into my car and closed the door as he said take care. I mean I felt Your love touch me!
I even had many divine appointments such as another dude who also desires to be a lawyer talk to me at length about politics, law and spiritual warfare which was a popular topic for the night as well as defending the faith; apologetics. There was also a man whom had a liking to me and who asked me out and whom at that time I declined for many reasons although it still haunts me to this day since he has a huge wall up understandably after all these years but we both seems to have a soft spot for each other. In any case we both got to talk a little bit but not as much as I would have liked to. Oh well I'm giving it to God. Also in the morning today after reading the Psalms and Proverbs I just wanted to go outside for a walk. I went all the way down to the lake. Maybe that's why my foot was increasingly vulnerable because of the two hour walk that I had in the morning down to the lake and back. I prayed to You all the way there. I increasingly felt attacked in my mind and the atheist dude kept coming in my head. I prayed for him to be saved. Then You reminded me about how anxious I was about the whole thing and how worry offends You and how I was worshiping this situation as an idol in my heart. I was convicted but I didn't know how to break free. Today with Your love You broke me free. Your love is a stronger love extended through Your body, my fellow brothers and sisters in Christ. As I listened to Your Word on my i-phone on my way back I was immensely comforted. Your Word was a warm blanket and was sweet and satisfying. It is perfect. It was Psalms 23. Sure my ankle is still sprained but God You have a reason for everything and You have turned this situation around to bring good out from it. Like my older brother in Christ carrying me through the doors to my destination it is You that carry me through this journey of life. Thank you for all those who have prayed for me. Thank You God for restoring faith, new life and hope into me. In Jesus Name I pray, amen.
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