Speaking Tongues

Dear Heavenly Father, I come to Thee in Jesus Name. Yesterday I was just wasting away before You rescued me. Specifically I was engaging in self-destructive habits both in thought and action. Finally by Your grace I lay on the floor and worshiped Thee. I honestly spoke to You and after I had confessed my transgressions against You I felt Your peace and forgiveness. I asked You truly about the whole deal with speaking in Tongues. I mean even though I spoke it on Pentecost Sunday a year or two ago and even though everyone around me in my church speaks it, I had my doubts about it and it was completely hindering my faith. Then all of a sudden I was reminded about all my experiences where the Holy Spirit whether in tongues or not had helped me. In my darkest hour I can say it was Him who gave me power, and Tongues certainly edified me and others all around me. I was kind of spooked out by what I had already accepted in faith earlier. God immediately lead me to this website. Diclaimer: Please ask God for any and all theological questions you have and He is faithful to answer if you are truly open to Him. For me, He answered in a way that speaks to me so it may be different for you. But the website is: http://www.tbm.org/tongues.htm

Also after I spoke, rather sang in Tongues yesterday ( which I need to look into singing in Tongues in scripture since I am sick and tired and annoyed really about the demonic attacks I've encountered by opening myself up to what I thought was the Holy Spirit but that's another post). I felt so strengthened and alive and I had hope in my heart! I spoke with my mom, my sister, and I even got the desire to do some school work. Praise God! Today I was reminded when I woke up how the day before when I ordered a beer at the restaurant, the waitress was so mad at me. She even asked for ID. That meant that she thought I was below 19! Yeah! Even thought I'm a couple of years older than that. Also last night my food started to hurt again. Today my sister has a date on which I am accompanying her and getting ready will be so hard and laborious! Lord help me! Also I am concerned about walking about on my foot, especially on Monday for work. I really need to be able to walk a few days before Monday because I don't think I will be comfortable walking Monday and putting such pressure and strain on my foot right away. *sigh. God I don't know what to do except lean on You and give my anxieties to You to work through according to Your will. In Jesus name I pray, amen.