Sausages

I come to God in Jesus Name and I cover every word with the blood of Jesus Christ amen. Oh man I vowed never to eat another sausage but when I got home from work I chewed down at least five to seven of them with white rice which I vowed never to eat again..... why? Sure I was hungy and wanted sht fast but I thin kthis was emotional eating... because just before I left work I felt super guilty... like I don't now how to handle the situation of telling my workplace that I dropped some courses so I'm available in their eyes to put me to work but I want a summer and I don't want to burn out... and I dont want to see my friend hurt and everyone yell at me for deeption... but my mo says they shouldn't haev any business knwing either and I don't want to work extra hours anaywa but sice we're short staffed it's taking away from my friend's summer... and not tthat she would do the same for me.. but God I want to do what's right in Your eyes... I don't want to shame me or birng a bad rep because I'm representing You.. and I think that stress hit me hard and hence the white rice and SEVEN sausages late at night.... sigh.. help me find a soution I need Your wisdsom and guidance. Thank You. In Jesus Name I ask and pray, amen...Forgive me for gluttony, idolatry and all that Lord.. I should have come to You first before eating anything....