I repent! Frogive me !!

I come to God in Jesus Name.. Forgive me.. I have done an unholy thing yet again.. I feel as if I was ombarded with it today.. whether it was my co -worker feeding that into me or whether she was flipping through images taht are ungodt by accident ... Lord Jesus thank you for taking her away ... I see why now... God.. I am so ashamed.. and I ask You for Your forgivenes and Holy Spirit forgiveness.. I can't take it back and I didn't think ti through... I really didn't... and I pray that You will pardon me andwill cover me with the blood of Jesus Christ... I don't know why.. was it them.. I know tiwas a personal decision.. i felt pressure .. and i guess I was impatitent.. God.. I was needy adn desperate adn I ddn't trust You.. I had no control... I lost intimacy woith You it was just flesh , flesh adn more flesh.. and now all unseen circumstances I pray Thee have mercy on me.. I want to know why I'm like this... acceptance.. adn then in my house I feel the pornea or sexual immorality spirit more than You... serioiusy.. and I also feel weird around my dad... like SUPER werid if You know what I mean... AGHHHH !! Pleasse free me from this and myself... I need You.. I think the pressure, eating and all of that needed a release.. but I know it was the wrong kind.. forgive me for my sin God I pray in Jesus Name, amen... and ughh I dodn't want to disquaitfy mustl which is why I do NOT like to take leadership positions anywhere.. especially Chrisitan ones.. Lord help me..