...Juuust Great...

yup.. where do I start my rant and venting... Itès 5:20 am and I woke up at atourn 1 am a few hours before I got to sleep and this stupid kneww is TWITCHING more than ever and I canèt get to sleep... mind you I prayed... I called on Jesus Name.. and I believe help my unbelief... forgiveness... all of that... I said sorry to mom yestertday.. my dad on earth is also up causing a rackus.. work that was never stresssful is... ughhh I even dropped all my courses except two to take things easy.. now I haev to tell work.. so much for balance... one good thing is that mom took care of me when I went t her downstaris... giving me attention and affection and a hot water bag .. but to no avail because BOTH my knees started twiching like mad.. I mean makes my whole body shake... : ( ... and it wotn stop and I donèt know why itès happening... this past few days have been miserable.. Ièm getting fatter cuz I keep eating.. I get nervous and afraid for no reason... I keep oosing a lOOOOOTT of my hair.. to the point I canèt even tie my hair or it looks like I am balding or something... how come I have such a weak personality and do the most careless things... like touching my eyes constantlty even when I realize things when I touched the book the Shack which Ièm reading from a co-worker who was terrily sick... and when will I become a lawyer.. and will I... I feel like there is so much work ot do.. I was listening to Dani yesterday.. it was really useful.. but I was thinking (after I kept crying ) how did Dani do all of this.. like it seems impossible to me.. aaaaaaaaaaaaaaauuuughhhhhhhh my kneeeeeeeeeeeeeeee :( seriously... it killsss when it twotches.. whyyyy God.. where is the stress from... what do I do.. wher eis my healing.. I rebuked it but itès still here.. is it my psychology.. I feel so vulnerable... Iève never felt this down for so long in my life.. this event on campus which I walked and got ready fgh... I canèt slepp andthis will have long term affects on my body... OWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW my kneeee STOPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPPP ugh! I cannot say I like my life right now... eating Macdonalds a large fries in my car.. never though I would get to that... maybe thatès why my body crazy... never any peace...