The Seat Next Door

In my International Development class I found a boy that sat right next to me and it made me feel really uncomfortable at first. I wanted to move, but I remained there because I wanted to be polite. But the smoke smell was on him and sure enough he did smoke after class, but that was not the part I was annoyed with. It was the fact that he sat next to me, he asked me for a pen, kept looking at me throughout the class, kept saying thank you too many times, ugh! Why do I attract the same kind of insecure, prideful, foolish men. Sure enough he was restless in his seat, his friends were no different after class, and he talked without any sense. He was being overly kind and even the professor noticed because he wouldn't shut up about basically making stuff up, as the profs would say, " BSing". Then sure enough the prof said to him very sternly, " make sure you have the facts straight about an example before speaking". Wow! That had such an impact on me. For instance, I was reminded of the Legally Blonde line where the professor told the student harshly, " knowing before speaking". Then as I left the classroom, I asked God, why did that happen? Then in a still, small voice He said, well I wanted you to see how you act around guys that you particularly are fond of, especially in the first instance. The same feeling of being uncomfortable around them and displaying a false sense of confidence anxiety was a turn off at best. I now could see how I have acted in a similar situation, when I wasn't calm, cool and collected, an inner, steady confidence that is much needed if ever I would enter into a successful relationship and keep it. It was in the end, a learning experience.

Today I also met with a friend i made in this school and I know God has entrusted her to me in this season. I pray that I will be an excellent example of what it means to be a Christian and to exhibit excellence and integrity. May God protect this bond and friendship with the blood of Jesus Christ. Amen.